I'm wondering the halls aimlessly.
A friend comes up and tells me, "Mara! Smile!"
I say... "I don't want to... I'm just not feeling it. It takes too much effort to smile."
I have no energy to put in the effort to do much of anything today. I just want to go home and sleep for hours. I know that once I get some sleep I'll probably feel better, but for now I'll keep on walking. Maybe I'll get to a place where I want to be. Maybe I'll smile a couple times. So far today I've smiled once. It felt good, but it went away like all good things do. I wish I could stop thinking this way. This is awful. I have a blog post that I don't ever plan to post... but if you really want to know about it then ask. Maybe I'll tell you. Probably will. Maybe I won't. Who knows...
You love me?
Go away.
You love me?
Go away.
Then I'll need you
and you won't be there
and I'll regret the day
I told you to go away.
I need you. Who am I talking to? I don't really know. I need a hug. I need that warm feeling when you get a good hug. That feeling when you know that person really, really cares and is putting everything into that hug. I need to feel like I'm not so alone.
A friend comes up and tells me, "Mara! Smile!"
I say... "I don't want to... I'm just not feeling it. It takes too much effort to smile."
I have no energy to put in the effort to do much of anything today. I just want to go home and sleep for hours. I know that once I get some sleep I'll probably feel better, but for now I'll keep on walking. Maybe I'll get to a place where I want to be. Maybe I'll smile a couple times. So far today I've smiled once. It felt good, but it went away like all good things do. I wish I could stop thinking this way. This is awful. I have a blog post that I don't ever plan to post... but if you really want to know about it then ask. Maybe I'll tell you. Probably will. Maybe I won't. Who knows...
You love me?
Go away.
You love me?
Go away.
Then I'll need you
and you won't be there
and I'll regret the day
I told you to go away.
I need you. Who am I talking to? I don't really know. I need a hug. I need that warm feeling when you get a good hug. That feeling when you know that person really, really cares and is putting everything into that hug. I need to feel like I'm not so alone.
Am I being selfish? I don't mean to be. I really don't. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
Dont be sorry please =D and dont worry your never alone and you can have a hug ANYTIME!
ReplyDeleteI was there! Lol. And i;m always here to give you a hug, ya know that right babe? My higs are awesome if i do say so myself. not like i spend time at home hugging myself, cause that would be weird....
ReplyDeleteIma shut up, im rambling.
i heart you.
Hehe, crack.
You dont smell like crack
Or taste like it
Not liek i would know,
lol. jk.
i realy dont.
i promise.
Aqnd this comment was supposed to make you smile and if you arent smilimg right now, im making a weird face as you read this. so you better be smiling young lady.
So there.
I LOOOOOOOOVVVVVEEEEEEEEE u!
;DDDDD