Opening Up.

"If it isn't important enough to take a risk to go after, then it isn't important enough to obtain!"

- Unknown

What is this supposed to refer to? Is it talking about careers/futures? Love? Or the last slice of pizza? I don't know, but I don't think it really matters to me. My entire life I've been living in a comfort zone. Always afraid to take risks or take chances or just cross that line. I talked about it during my English presentation. I fear the dark because when I think of the dark I think of the unknown/not knowing. In the dark I don't know what's around me or right in front of me. I could be standing on the edge of a cliff and live my entire life in fear that I might fall. I don't want to live like that anymore. I've gotten better since 7th/8th grade, but I still have to work on a lot of stuff. I'm afraid to say whats on my mind in fear of saying the wrong thing... but when I don't say something it's usually too late and I've lost my chance. Like I said, I've gotten better, but only when it comes to school and getting ahead. I've gotten no where when it comes to that 'L' word. If anything I think I've gotten worse. Haha. Figures right? I guess I just have to take baby steps and see what happens.

"My fear

is of the dark.

What do you fear?

Perhaps a broken heart?

Now of that, I am

terrified."

-By Me

Where did all of this sudden burst of truth/honesty/openness come from? Haha. I find it funny for some reason. I can't lie even though I know sometimes I should. Like in this blog... maybe I should be more careful about the things I say on here, but it feels like the only place I can be me/say what's on my mind and not be paranoid about what people are thinking of me. There are only a handfull of people I trust/feel really, truly comfortable talking to/being around/being me.

Thank you to those people...

Nikki Molina, Maddie Sharp, Kelsey Boisvin, &Eric Jacobsen.

I'm sorry if you're thinking I can't trust you or anything, but it takes me a while to warm up to some people and really trust them. I don't know why, but it's hard for me to trust anyone. It's the comfort zone thing. I'm working on that one, but it kind of falls under the 'L' word too, so it might be a while.