End of January.

Wow. Tomorrow is February... and the beginning of Finals week! Ugh. I'm dreading Thursday & Friday, but afterwards it'll be fun. Hopefully. Haha. Anyway... it's the end of January! End of the first month of 2010. I think the year started out pretty well. I'm excited for the rest of this year. Haha. I've improved my grades, met some cool new people, and started working/volunteering some place new all in this month alone. It's been fun. Can't wait til June though. I turn 16 which means I'll be able to get on the payroll ($15/hour weekdays & $35/hour on Sundays) for the KW PAC/theatre, I get my license, and schools out! :D Cannot wait.

Ummmm... what else is there for now... I don't know. I wrote myself a letter today because I was too lazy to get on the computer to actually blog. The letter kind of relates to this too since I'm talking about future stuff I guess....

Here it goes:

Dear Self,

What do you want from life? What comes first in life/what's most important? The future seems dark, but not in the way your might think. I just can't see it very clearly right now. I wish I could, but I just can't. I want to a successful life career wise... I want to be able to love what I do, but I don't know what I want to do. And what if what I want to do won't hold up financially? How much would it cost to get there in the first place? What about college? Ugh. I hate not knowing, but the things I do know make me happy.

So I have a list of things I want to/could do in the future. Things that I know I would love/make me happy, despite the level of difficulty of getting there or earnings, etc.

• Theatre/movie production in general.
• Museum curator.
• Archivist.
• Book Publisher.
• Book Editor.
• Magazine Editor?
• Some kind of editor, haha.
• Poet.
• Librarian?
• Historian/Professor? (Renaissance/Euro/World history)

Some of that stuff is just the general area of whatever. Ah, I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore. Haha. Can you see me as any of those things? I can't... maybe. I want to do ALL of those things, but at the same time I know I can't. At least I don't think I can... haha, who knows. (:

Alright... that's all I have to say for now. I might've missed some stuff on that list, but I don't care right now. I'll probably add to it later on in life or something. Good night everyone. Sweet dreams.

P.S. My last post used to be titled 'ShoutOuts,' but I realized I forgot the shout-outs all together, so I renamed it 'Home.'