Sundays.

It's Sunday and it's a beautiful Sunday. The day isn't over, but it's been a pretty good day thus far and I'm excited for the rest of today. Yesterday was pretty great too. I get my security badge for the museum next week! I'm excited. Then I went to a charity poker tournament last night. It was fun. My dad was so close to winning it's ok thought because it was a good cause plus I got to see my family and that's always fun.

Today was a productive/lazy day. I know those are two totally opposite things, but that's how my life is I guess. I woke up at like 9am and watched an hour worth of Jullian Smith videos on YouTube. I absolutely love that guy. You should check him out. (http://www.juliansmith.tv/) Then I started studying AP biology. It felt good and I'm starting to feel a little better about taking the exam next month. After 4 hours of studying I decided to watch Prefontaine and I absolutely loved it. It was just amazing, but incredibly sad to me.

Now I'm playing Monopoly with my little sister and I'm gonna see The Losers with my dad at 8PM. I'm pretty stoked. For two reasons... 1) I've been wanting to see The Losers! and 2) it's been a very long time since my dad and I saw a movie together... like just the two of us. I don't remember when the last time was, but I think it was before middle school. =P

I love my family. I love life right now. I need to focus on school and my family. Nothing else right now. I need to keep this mindset of never giving up on my dreams and not letting anyone get me down. I am going to make it to a college/university in New York or Boston. I will get my PhD in something. Those things... goals... hopes... dreams... wishes... those are the reason I work hard in everything I do. Those are things that I know that if I keep working the way I am right now I will accomplish and achieve those things. Those are the things that will be proof of the hard work I've done. Those are the things that I'll be able to rub into the faces of those who looked down on me.

I also do it for my family in the now and the family I will have in the distant future. My family has done so much to get me where I am now and I'm not going to let them down. I'm going to be able to pay them back for all of the hard work they've been through to support me and my sister. I want to be able to make them proud and make it possible for them to just be able and sit back and relax. I want them to not have to worry about so much anymore. I want to be able to look at them in the future and say thank you. I know how much my mom had to sacrifice to take care of me... I didn't have much of a childhood, but that wasn't anyone's fault. My mother had to work and she wanted to keep me safe and out of harms way. We've been through rough patches and it's taken me so long to understand why she's done all those things she does and stuff. I love her. Even if there are days where I want to shout about how much I hate her... I love her. My mom worked so hard to give me the life she never had and I want to be able to show her how much I appreciate that.

I told myself that once I were able to get out of Washington, I would never look back. I would cut all ties and just leave. I'd start a new life. Now I have a totally different mindset. I will come back. I'd come back for them. Life ain't so bad. People should learn to appreciate it a little more, but I'm a hypocrite, so who knows... I don't...

I don't think that made any sense, but I like the way it sounded, so I'm gonna leave it at that and hit 'publish post.'

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