independence dance?

Here's another list... only this one is always changing. Depends on a lot of different variables I guess... the 3 biggest variables though are myself, the people, and just the all around mood of the day. Those are very general variables, but they change this list a lot. Just keep that in mind.

Things I hate/annoy me most/ugh...

• lying/liars
• slackers
• when someone starts saying something but doesn't finish or says nevermind
• not having a plan
• having nothing to do
• being wrong
• being proven wrong
• littering
• make-up
• being told I can't do something/isn't good enough
• asking for help
• feeling helpless
• being called weak
• people...
• broken promises
• stupid people

It's a very bipolar list. That's life. Ugh... there is so much more that I want to put on this list, but I'm listening to happy music, so I can't really think of them right now. Hahaha. Some things I just kind of want to explain... First off, I AM a hypocrite, but I honestly think that no one is truly NOT a hypocrite, so whatever. And like I said earlier, it all depends on my mood and other stuff. When I say stupid people... I don't know. I feel mean by saying it, but some people can be idiots sometimes and it can be pretty annoying! Oh and being called weak... yeah, only okay when I say it or it's an appropriate time to say it like sayyyy not being able to push something super heavy across the theatre stage or something. THAT is an appropriate time to call me weak because I'll probably be laughing/admitting it myself. It is NOT ok to say that I'm weak everyday out of no where. =P I hate that. Seriously. This kid I know did that a couple days ago and dude... I showed him. JK. But I imagined my fist running into his face at one point, but it wouldn't have worked so I instead imagined I kicked him... and yeah. That was pretty effective xD Seriously though, we were walking down the hall when he said that... so I just shoved him, but he was laughing the whole time... until he hit the wall right in front of him that he didn't seem to have noticed. Yeah... revenge is a bitch and I'ma bitch that fights back. Haha. Ugh, I don't know what's up with me today. I feel like punching someone in the face. I really, really do. There's this one girl I think I'm really close to just... I don't even know. I'm just waiting for a good time where it'll be worth getting a detention or something. I've been able to tolerate her for another friends sake, but it's getting really close. I'm not even kidding. Wow, this post which at one point had a point... seems to have become a random rant of sorts. Oh well. You can stop reading if you want... I'm just gonna keep ranting about stuff you might not care about xD

Here's a random topic... sort of, people making out in the halls at school kind of annoys me too. I didn't put it on the list, but I think it should be. I mean I see those people doing their thing and in my head I'm thinking, "wow, I hope they know they won't be together in another month..." Haha. I know it's a little mean, but that's just how I think. I've never believed in things lasting. I don't believe in forever and I don't know if I believe in relationships.I don't know why I think this right now, but it's just some random thing I'm thinking that won't get out of my head. I just don't have time for a relationship and I keep forgetting that. It kind of sucks, but it's alright I guess. Whatever. I don't even know what I'm talking about any more. I've been watching too much TV, but Mary from In Plain Sight is probably one of my heroes. =P

So let's end this entry with awesome quotes from Mary Shannon which I pretty much agree with. (:

Marshall Mann: What exactly is your beef with humanity?

Mary Shannon: I have no beef with humanity... it's people I can't stand.

• Mary Shannon: "Happily ever after"; the big lie. Those three insidious words, repeated again and again, promising myself, and a gazillion other little girls, that some day, sure as the sunset, a man prettier than ourselves, would sweep us away. To live our lives forever and a day. Blah blah, blah. Never once, mentioning the years of quiet desperation, that surely followed. Which is why I pray with all my soul, that whoever invented the lethal mantra "happily ever after" died penniless, face down in the gutter, with cats, gnawing on his ears."

• Mary Shannon: [voice over] "I think my least favorite phrase in the human language is "I'm sorry". Nine times out of ten, when a person says they're sorry, they're really only sorry they got caught, and now want me to forgive them for something I'm still pissed off about. Which puts me in the unhappy position of either saying "Up yours!", and looking like a total bitch, or saying "I forgive you", and feeling like a total shmuck. And that's why I hate the phrase."

• “Perhaps the most difficult choices to make are the ones that deny us those things our heart wants most. Because as it’s been said, “Without reason nor prudence the heart wants what the heart wants. And more often than not it will not be denied.” Episode 1.09 — Mary Shannon Voice Over

• "If there’s one thing working in Witness Protection has taught me, it’s that people hate change. And we all say we want to change. Get thinner. Quit smoking. Learn to speak Portuguese. But we don’t. For better or worse, our habits define us. We turn the pages of the same tattered script over and over.” — Mary Shannon

• “I stare agape at Sunday-in-the-park couples. Sidewalk strollers, fingers laced, heads on shoulders, hearts laid bare. Audacious high-wire artists soaring netless. Oblivious or brave? 'Arrogant idiots,' I muse, from my spectator view, hoping no one hears the screaming inside my head.” Episode 1.10 — Mary Shannon Voice Over

• Mary: (Thinking to herself) People talk too much, people think too much. We're all village idiots enamored with our shadows, oblivious to the setting sun.