The Inner Workings of My Dreams

First priority... get my mind,
and grades, back on track.

I've been feeling a little lost and I know it. I can tell by the dreams I've been having lately. I'm honestly in love to horror movies and zombies and stuff, so you'd think that were the cause of my nightmares. The thing is that I don't think of them as nightmares because I'm not actually scared or in any kind of terror. Sometimes I'm excited and pumped with adrenaline, or at least that's what it feels like. Most of the time, even with the excitement I'm sad or rather depressed. In dreams you don't normally know you're dreaming, at least not at first and that's the case with these zombie dreams. I don't realize I'm dreaming until about halfway through it and when I do, it's just like I'm watching a movie and it makes me sadder for some reason. And it's not like I have these dreams constantly. It happens when I'm beginning to get worn out from school and such, but when I do have those dreams it's the same thing. Sometimes it's a different house, but it's always the same scenario.

I'm in a house surrounded by zombies and the house is being attacked. I've got myself locked in the master bedroom and I know it's the master bedroom because of the bathroom that's attached. Most master bedrooms have bathrooms and sometimes in my dreams I find that I've locked myself in the bathroom. I don't think it's anyone in particular, but I know that I'm in the room with a few other normal people. However, those people are either very young or incredible old as though I've been left there for be in charge of taking care/watching over them. I always feel like that's what I was supposed to do because some how I know that the other adults have left the room to venture around the house for whatever reason. Whether it be to the fight the zombies or to find supplies like food. All I know is that I've basically been left alone to fend for myself with a huge responsibility, or burden if your feeling pessimistic.

I wasn't sure what it meant, so I looked up the meaning of zombie dreams and this is what I found via dreammoods.com:

Zombie

To see or dream that you are a zombie, suggests that you are physically and/or emotionally detached from people and situations that are currently surrounding you. You are feeling out of touch. Alternatively, a zombie means that you are feeling dead inside. You are just going through the motions of daily living.

To dream that you are attacked by zombies, indicate that you are feeling overwhelmed by forces beyond your control. You are under tremendous stress in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream represents your fears of being helpless and overpowered.

I know it's probably ridiculous to believe in these kind of things, but I do. I like to think everything happens for a reason; everyone has a place and purpose in the world; everyone plays an important part in each others lives. Sometimes I think I have too much faith in people or something, but I also think some people just need someone to believe in them.