Starstrukk.

This month has been ridiculous... like in a good way.
Ridiculously awesome, I guess.

We went shopping for school clothes in Portland two weekends ago. I think it's kind of funny, but really cool that I could kind of tell how I've changed over the years. Elementary school I wore nothing but sweats and sweatshirts. Then in middle school I always wore jeans and refused to be girly like. Now I've cleared my closet out and replaced all my more boyish clothes with new girl-ier clothes. I'm not saying that I've become girly... I'm just embracing the fact that I am a girl. I'm still not into the whole make up scene, but I love fixing my hair and stuff when I'm not too lazy to care about my hair that is. Haha. I don't think that'll ever change (:

After we got back from Portland I watched some pretty amazing movies (Antwone Fisher. Love Happens. & Jerry Maguire.) and just relaxed. Some personal me time/down time. (: Then I got together with some pretty cool people and went to the zoo! Saw some adorable meerkats and penguins. Then we pretty much chilled on some historic cannon thing. It was amazing. We went over to Brian's and watched Tropic Thunder and half of Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay. Hahaha. Pretty good stuff!

Just this last weekend (from the 11th to 15th), my family and I were in California. San Bernardino to be exact, but it was along drive there and back. 40+ hours total, there and back. It was totally worth it though. I got to drive 100 miles there and I enjoyed looking at the mountains and the change of scenery. We were in Cali to support my uncle and cousin. In the beginning of August they won the title of Washington State Little League Champions. They went to compete in the NW Regional World Series and won. Both the semifinal and final game's were televised and I was on TV... haha. ESPN2, but now they game is on espn3.com. You should check it out if you can find it! Anyway, they're probably in Pennsylvania now. They're in the World Series and ever game is televised! I'm so proud of them and this is just a dream... so surreal, but amazing. Shout out to my Uncle Kai Nahaku who is the team manager and my cousin Ikaika Nahaku #7! Best of luck! I'll be cheering you guys on.

Now I'm just sitting in my living room with my grandfather watching Poker. Haha. Gotta recharge for another crazy two weeks. I've gotta finish laundry and cleaning up the RV for our trip. Then I'll be going to the movies with some of my besties, Madds & Kels & whoever else. We're gonna see Vampire Sucks which should be hilarious. On Sunday I'm gonna try and go to Wild Waves with some more awesome people (Madds, Brian, Danny, and Danny's girl). Golf tryouts next Tuesday and Wednesday. Last, but not least, MINNESOTA ROADTRIP with the family and Kels! (: I'm so stoked.

Then it'll be back to school, but I'm hoping things will be different because I feel different. I feel changed in a way. Hopefully in a good way, but I think that's all a matter of opinion. I'm still stressing about life and the future, but I'm confident and believe in things that most people wouldn't have faith in I guess. I try to be optimistic, but I keep forgetting about reality. You can't have everything and sometimes life is about compromise, but no matter what, I will strive to be happy because... I just want a happy life. I don't know. I'll have to think about that one more and get back to you on that.

Talk to You Latez.
Good Night!

Rants&Ramblings. Notes to Self:

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• Mass Communications
• Desktop Publishing
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Random List of Fave TV Shows: Haven, Psych, Leverage, Burn Notice, Harper's Island, Supernatural, Scoundrels, Community, Royal Pains, The Gates
There's a lot more, but these are the ones I've been watching lately.

Minnesota Roadtrip from Aug. 25th to Sept. 5th:

• Silverwood Theme in Idaho
• Ghost Town in Montana
• Yellowstone National Park in Montana
• Devils Tower in Wyoming
• Crazy Horse Memorial in South Dakota
• Mt. Rushmore in South Dakota
• Wall Drug Store in South Dakota
• Corn Palace in South Dakota
• Mall of America in Minnesota
• Roller Coaster Park in Minnesota

Plus visiting the Frazier family (: Gonna be fun!

Old

I live by, "Carpe Diem," which means to seize the day. Interpret that however you'd like, but honestly, I wouldn't care. You live your own life and I'll live mine. I try to live my life without letting anything get me down. Which means I try to avoid drama as much as I can… it's just not my thing. If you try to suck me into your world of drama, then I'll just walk away, unless you're a good friend. Then you know I'll always have your back.

I'm not here to make any enemies.

I'm just here to live the life I was given.

I live a pretty honest life. I live a life of trust and fullness. There is nothing weighing me down. There are no grey clouds blocking the visions of my dreams. I have had my share of regrets, but I've learned from my mistakes so I'm not regretting them so much now. I'm still growing up and I'm still learning, so I apologize in advance for whatever mistakes I make.

Sh*t happens.

We just have to learn how to forgive and move on...

Deep in thought...

After hours, days, weeks, and probably even months of stressing over life I think I'm really starting to get used to it. I realized that I wouldn't be anything without my family, but I also realize that I can't depend on them all the time. I need to start depending on myself to step up and speak up more than anything. I'm tired of being so afraid to go out because I might run into someone or see someone I know or know of... I'm not sure why I don't like running into people in public places I just don't. I think it's that I'm caught off guard when seeing certain people I don't expect to see and as a result I just don't know how to react when seeing said person/people.

I've improved as a person, but as life goes on... things keep changing. Things I once thought were one thing turn out to be something totally different. My opinions have changed and my choice of life style/college life/study habits... etc, have changed so much. Lately I've been thinking about the future, so I'm going to stop dwelling in the past unless to learn from a previous mistake.

I'm not sure how my life will turn out, but I think I have a good idea of what I want and how I might get there. When talking about college and career's, I've been pushed and shoved in so many directions. My mind is constantly being filled with ideas and influenced by the slightest remarks. Like once I think I have my heart set on something, someone I respect like a close teacher or family says something about negative about my choice or suggests something else that I should do and I go into this whole cycle all over again. I've finally realized that others say things and will try to sway you to go a certain way, but they don't know me as well as I know myself and I am the only person that knows what I truly want.

Example... theatre tech, design, and lighting. For a while I was unsure about the idea during freshman year, then I thought it was my calling towards the beginning of sophmore year. Then I started getting into it a little more and realized that it just wasn't for me. I mean I still like helping out with the theatre, but I just couldn't see myself really doing it for the rest of my life or anything. And now coming into my Junior year I have yet again changed my mind, but this time I think I've found something I really want to do.

Moral of the story is... follow your heart. I mean, there's a lot more to it, but that's the basic message to my story here. Haha... so yeah. I don't know. I really want to write more, but I'm too tired.

So, I have a few secrets...
I'm a sap for romantic comedies and love stories in general.
I have a secret crush on the Backstreet Boys... concert tonight was fun (:
The people that truly inspire me are my mom&dad, Tita Liza, and Tita Cathy.
I owe my mom so much and need to show my appreciation better...
I love staying up until 2am, but I like waking up at 6am and not feeling tired :P

Good night.

Happily ever after?

I want to fall in love... I want to say that I want to fall in love again, but I'm not sure if or when I was ever in love. I want to fall into whatever it is that you fall into to feel that quickening of the heart and fluttering in your tummy when you see that person that causes these things to happen in the first place. I'm not so sure if that's love, but it's a good feeling while it lasts. I'm not sure I want to fall in love until after high school... maybe after college or during college. I don't know. I don't know how to balance a relationship with school and family matters and friends and just life. I'm not sure when I'll ever be able to balance these variables of life. Maybe that's what life is all about. Maybe not. I keep saying "That's life," but that's just something to say when really you don't know what it is or maybe I don't even know what life is or was to begin with.

I keep trying to think of a time when things were easy and simple, but in a weird reality there was never a time like this. If you really think about it... I don't think anything is or ever was easy and simply. And I'm just speaking about life in general. There were times where you may have been ignorant or just plain oblivious of life, but that doesn't stop life from being complicated and difficult. You just weren't aware of it or just didn't care. I think that eventually that all catches up with you eventually and there is a time or will be a time where you just have to wake up from whatever dream you've been living in and own up to reality. You could call it growing up or becoming mature and what not, but in all reality, that's just life. So you know what I say? Get off your ass and deal with the reality of life because it's not going just wait for you catch up. You've gotta get your act together and get ahead of the game of life because the way I see it... once you've caught up with life and taken the lead... that's when things start to get easier and maybe more simple. So wake up, work hard, and enjoy life because you've only got this one life to live.

The End.