Ups & Downs.

Warning: Bitch on her period.

Hahaha. Alright, now that that is out of the way you can assume that I'm pretty hormonally/emotionally imbalanced. Like I feel like crying because I'm so happy to have such amazing friends and then there are times where I can't decide whether I really hate my mother or really love her. It's hard. It really is. Harder than you will ever know or understand, so please don't try and don't judge me like most people would. I do feel bad about doing certain things and feeling particular things toward people. Thus, at the end of this blog will be a list. A list of vows, revelations, and resolutions. I feel like making a shit load of lists lately. It's super funny because I just realized that whenever that time of the month comes my mirror because covered with my lists. There so much I want to say and want to get out of my head, but since everything is just crammed in there, I guarantee it'll just pour out. There may or may not be any order to my madness, so just bare with me. (:

Golf has become a super important part of my life! I realize that whenever I am on the verge of a mental breakdown I feel so much better after practice. It's so much more than just swinging a club and hitting a ball that doesn't move. It's about training yourself to work under unusual circumstances and pressure sometimes. It's about learning to let go and get on with the rest of the game. And if you think about it, it's a lot like life. Sometimes you just have to let go and move on. Thus, golf isn't just a game. It's practically my life. At tryouts I was shooting lower 60's and upper 50's. Throughout the season I've averaged around the mid-50's which is a major improvement from last year. Last year I was hitting in the upper to mid 60's. Last year I was mostly JV #3 and didn't do very well at the JV Tournament. This year I've been moved up to mostly JV#2 AND I tied for 5th at the JV Tourney out of the 24 girls competing with a 109 (shot 55 on the front nine and 54 on the back)!!! The top 6 in the tourney get to go on to districts with their varsity team... so I basically made it to districts! I'm so happy! Like I don't think I'll make it past districts and onto state, but the fact that I made it is all that really matters to me! I plan to practice so much more than I usually have during the off season. Plus I'll be getting lessons, so I'm pretty stoked.

**Gotta shower... write more latez ;D