Life is weird...

I gotta say, life is full of surprises and sometimes it's totally out of your hands. It's hard to deal with change sometimes, but change isn't all bad.

I'm worried about my grades. My 3.8 may be in danger, but hopefully hard work will pay off in the end. For some reason I'm just not understanding math. It's so hard and it's frustrating because I was so good at one point. I can promise this... my GPA ain't goin' down without a fight. (:

Golf... I need to practice, but it's winter... snowing. COLD. Haha. I'm trying to figure out some captain-y things I can do for next year. I've got some fundraising ideas and some ideas for team bonding. Like putter pool and hosting a tournament. Hopefully I can speak up and be heard. We'll see what happens. (:

Oh, and here's a bit of news.... I'm moving. I've had mixed feelings, but overall, this is good. It'll be fun. I get to start over, kind of. I mean, I'll still be going to Kentwood, but this seems like the kind of push I need to change a little. Boost my confidence a little more and stuff. I don't know. Time will tell I guess.

So thanksgiving is over, but there is never enough words in the world to express how grateful I am for the things in my life. I love my friends and family so much. I don't know what I'd do without them. They seem to make things better no matter what's going on with life. And my mom is my hero, but I don't know how to thank her. It's hard sometimes because we get into fights and all, but that's part of life I guess. I still love her no matter how loud I yell and she knows it, I hope. =P

All in all, life is weird, but good.

Golf Goals

So the first set of goals are the ones I made at the beginning of the year. I was able to achieve my first goal, my ultimate goal, and more! I didn't score into the 40's until my very last match which was the 2nd day of districts. It was totally worth it. I had never played at that course and still managed to par 4 holes, 3 on the back nine, plus a 46 on the back. And not only did I make varsity next year, but I lettered because I made it to the 2nd day of districts and I'm one of the two golf captains for next year!

Best golf season of my life and hopefully next year will be better.

3 Goals for Golf (to be achieved by the end of the season):

• Score in the 40's
• No more than 2 putts a hole
• No more than a double bogey on any hole

**Ultimate Goal: Make Varsity

3 Goals for Next Season:

• Score in the 40's consistently
• Medal in at least two matches
• Two putts & don't score over a double bogey

**Ultimate Goal: Make it to State

21 things to do before you're 21

The Things I Still Haven't Done:

3. Go skinny-dipping!
It's the most liberating thing ever. You have to let go of your insecurities when you take off your clothes. But you're hidden by the water — so it's like bending the rules. Who decided we have to wear clothes, anyway?

4. Save $1,000.
Just seeing that big number in your bank account is rewarding — knowing you did it alone.

6. Buy a lottery ticket.
But just one. Everyone should take one million-to-one shot in their lives — it's fun to dream such a big and outrageous dream.

9. Learn to drive a stick shift.
You never know when you'll get into a situation where you may need to know how. Plus, in terms of gas, these cars are better on your wallet.

10. Milk a cow.
I was terrified to do it, but conquering this small thing helped me do even bigger scary stuff.

11. Forgive someone.
A girl wrote "b****" on my locker when I was 16, and it always ate away at me inside. But when I made amends with her, the bad feelings evaporated.

12. Have your fortune told.
Sure, it's kind of silly. But doing it is really a reminder that in the end, only you hold the power to chart your own destiny.

15. Ride a horse.
Okay, it might sound cheesy, but when you connect with this animal and the wind blows through your hair, it's the closest feeling to real freedom.

18. Waitress at least once.
Serving someone is humbling, plus it teaches you how to communicate and multitask — two skills you'll use forever.

19. See one thing that is "the world's largest."
Even if it's just a frying pan — at least it can be your temporary claim to fame!

20. Leave the country.
Going to England, I realized how narrow my world really was — and that travel was the best way I could expand it.

21. Learn how to love your body.
I'm just now starting to feel perfect as I am because I have knobby knees and moles — not in spite of them.

Recipe of my Life

Ingredients:

• School/Grades
• Golfing
• Theatre
• Poetry
• Family
• Friends
• Web Design

School for about 6-7 hours.

Golfing for at least one hour.

Constantly on the computer.

The occasional poem.

Family bonding.

Friends and skype.

Getting paid to be in a place I love, the theatre.

Top Choices: Syracuse U. & San Diego State U.

It's the end of the first quarter of my Junior year...

I was able to accomplish so much with golf and school.

My grades are decent and will be better by the end of the semester.

I have no missing assignments and hopefully I can keep it that way.

I still have to register for the SATs and get my job shadowing figured out.

Work on my junior project... procrastination is my worst enemy...

&I realize that I don't need clubs like NHS or Key Club to be successful.

However, I would like to get my poetry club figured out and running.

I need to get my license to make things easier on myself and my parents.

I plan to apply for the City of Kent Internship in the winter...

I need to put my resume and cover letter together.

Start working on getting the MVCC scholarship this year.

I seriously need to call CAA for conference calls number 2 and 3...

Planning an SAT study group and the museum trip is necessary as well.

"You can have everything,

but not all at once."